Start Living in Spirituality
As we advance on
the spiritual path and go through different states, we are like babies because
we do not know how to develop or what happens to us, and we get confused. This is what
happens to small children: They are ready to accept anything you tell them
since how could they know the truth? They are completely in your power.
In the spiritual
world we go through the same "infantile" states. So what remains for us to do?
After we make great efforts to understand anything through reason and the right
organization of our work, as in any science, we must realize that in Kabbalah a
scientist is a person who has developed spiritual qualities of perception to
feel the world he is setting out to research.
approaching the study, we have to think about the Light that corrects us. This
will enable us to enter the sensation, and then also to enter the understanding
of the world that becomes revealed to us. First we feel it and then we
understand what we feel.
This can be seen
with babies: First they only feel "good" or "bad," and nothing besides that. Later
they start to understand what this depends on, how to come closer to the good
and avoid the bad, and so forth.
first, with sensations being specific fulfillments inside the desire. But in
order to be fulfilled, the desire has to change under the influence of the
Light, going from reception to bestowal. To this degree it will begin feeling
spiritual fulfillment, fulfillment by the quality of bestowal, fulfillment by
Therefore, it is
forbidden for us to regret the fact that we do not understand the material we
study or the ways of our work. A person who thinks he understands anything is a
fool. A person who is proud of knowing, understanding, and perceiving, and who
leaves the lesson full of energy, understanding, and pride, is the one that has
to realize how low he is in that state because there is no prayer or request in
his heart, and therefore no progress.
Precisely when a
person experiences lack of fulfillment, a feeling of his own insignificance,
total lack of understanding or feeling, and confusion, when he is in a total
fog and does not understand what is happening to him, that is when he is in the
best possible state for the upper Light to influence him. These moments come to
us only at times. At first we don't like them very much, but later we begin to
So what do we have
to prepare before the study? It is the desire for change. By changing our sensations
we will understand where we are and what is happening. But first we must feel
and be in the spiritual state, meaning to live in actions of
From the 2nd part of the Daily
Kabbalah Lesson 03/03/11, The Zohar
Real Confidence Comes from the Light
HaSulam, Ohr Bahir: Confidence is faith in yourself. In the
psychological sense it is a feeling of endurance. That's because nothing will
endure in the face of desire besides exhaustion or impatience in efforts.
a hero feels a powerful force of patience within and does not give up in the
face of anything, believing in himself and his strength. But a weak person
feels that he does not have the force of patience, and when another person
causes him to suffer, he cannot endure and therefore immediately surrenders to
Question: What is faith in yourself? It sounds egoistic.
Dr. Laitman's Answer: The text is
written in a way that it is deciphered differently below, in our world, and
above, in the spiritual world. In our world you are willing to endure if you
believe that you are right, if you aspire to the goal, if you really need
something, or if you love the people for whom you make efforts, such as your
children, relatives, and those close to you. On the other hand, in spirituality
everything is done by the force of the Light that influences you.
not a secret that heroism in our world is the force of egoism. We need envy, a
passionate desire, self-love and other stimuli to "light ourselves up" and
acquire the ability to endure. Besides, we receive the ability to endure from
nature. Some people are able to endure great suffering from birth.
when a person enters the spiritual world and begins working for the sake of
bestowal, this stops playing a role. There are no more strong or weak. Everyone
is on the same level and is not assisted by their material nature in any way.
In the spiritual world a person needs the force that dresses Lights in him.
here too every person differs from others, but he differs by his spiritual
purpose, which is determined by the root of his soul. In every other regard he
feels weak and powerless. The further a person advances, the weaker he feels,
and the more he depends on the Light that reforms.
first we are all heroes, "real men." But then we begin to get weaker until we
find that we have nothing left. That is how we get "broken," realize our weakness
and thanks to this, understand that we actually do not have to be able to do
anything besides look for the forces to persist and endure.
only have to find the force of faith. Then I will acquire the ability to
endure, the force of bestowal operating above knowledge. Let me feel empty
inside, let me have nothing worthwhile to work for, let me be completely devoid
of energy because my egoism does not push me forward and does not give me
forces. Yet, if I receive the force of bestowal from the Light that reforms,
then I can already realize it. The degree of my confidence depends on this.
the material world, the degree of my confidence depends on how much is
contained in my receiving Kelim. But in spirituality it is on the
contrary: The degree of my confidence depends on how much is contained in my
one has any "special favor" here and no one exceeds others in power. Every
person descends to zero and experiences total emptiness and weakness, and then
begins acquiring the force of bestowal that comes from above. But it happens
only on the condition that he is merged with the upper one. The receiving
desire must always be annulled before the upper one so that the bestowing
desire would give a person the force of endurance and confidence.
From the 4th part of the Daily
Kabbalah Lesson 03/03/11, on Confidence