Infinite Light Or Infinite Darkness?
By studying Kabbalah, we come into contact with the Light itself. By uniting with others who desire the same goal and studying together, we actively tune into Malchut of the World of Infinity where all people exist in their inner oneness, as one whole. As we desire to exist in this state actively, we draw the concealed Light to ourselves from this perfect state, thereby hastening our spiritual development. This is called becoming Isra-El, aspiring "directly to the Creator," one who "hastens time," who draws the Light to himself on his own through his studies and forces Him to be revealed. It also means one who "illuminates time," meaning one who wants the Light to direct him to bestowal. (Sanctity is the quality of bestowal.)
It turns out that studying in a Kabbalistic group gives us the "reins" or the "steering wheel" through which we can control ourselves-our forms of development and its speed-as we become independent of the Light. However, on the other hand, the Light is very powerful and has a program of development for each of us, as well as for all of us together. Therefore, when we try to hasten our development on our own, suddenly we begin to feel how dependent we are on this Light, on its awakening. Only with its help can we advance.
The Light raises and lowers me, which rouses within me the desire to develop in order to make myself "similar to the Creator," a human being, by rising above this animate level and this whole material life. I wait for the Light to begin to influence me. I prepare myself to surrender to it completely, to attune as much as possible to the studies, the group, dissemination, and to solve all the questions that have accumulated during the darkness and the concealment.
I am like that "rooster" from the parable about the rooster, and the bat that waits for the dawn. I am waiting for the Light to come and illuminate the path for me, and I rejoice when the Light comes. However, the "bat," who does not prepare himself for the coming of the Light, perceives the awakening from Above as darkness.
Although we exist in one common system, only those who await the coming of the Light perceive it as something desirable; for them it is truly Light. On the contrary, those who do not wish to draw closer to the Light, to bestowal, and to love one's neighbor, will feel continuously greater crises and problems in this world.
We all exist in the World of Infinity, but everything depends on our preparation. We can either feel infinite Light or infinite darkness there, or we can feel nothing at all as though we are unconscious and merely carrying out an animate existence. Everything depends on our desire to become human, meaning "similar" to the Creator in His love and bestowal.
-from the 1st part of the Daily Kabbalah Lesson 5/21/10, Shamati #241