A Prayer From The Depth Of The Heart
Our heart consists of desires that belong to the levels: inanimate, vegetative, animate and speaking. And inside that heart there is a new point that suddenly awakens right now and demands what it wants. I must identify the innermost point in my heart, and pray from within it. What does it mean "to pray"? To want to implement what my heart truly desires.
Therefore it is said that prayer comes from the depth of the heart, from the most important desire. That is because every one of us has thousands of desires, and our problem lies in that we divide all our exertion and plea between numerous things. Therefore we do not attain the main thing in our lives. I want this and this too, and a little bit more of that, and life supposedly flows calmly, but we do not attain the main thing in it.
We must concentrate all the desires so that they will serve our greatest desire, and then that desire will be great and sharp enough in order to receive a response. If I want to realize that desire through all the desires that I used to be scattered among, if I focus on it only, and associate all the pleasures that I will be able to attain and enjoy are only from it; if I concentrate all of my internality into that single desire, it is called "praying from the depth of the heart."
What does it mean "to pray"? To want it to happen. "Prayer" is the inner desire that is inside a person, inside his heart. One does not need to direct his desire toward some God that exists somewhere in area code 03 or 04. There is no such thing. Our inner desire already exists inside the Creator. And you always receive what you want.
This matter is similar to things that Baal HaSulam said about kibbutz members who settled in the Negev back in the day. When the kibbutz members expressed their desire to settle there, his son, the Rabash, asked him how they would live there, as there is no water there? Baal HaSulam replied that they would pray and it would rain. But how will they pray? They are secular! "This is not a problem," replied Baal HaSulam. "The inner desire in a person's heart-this is the prayer." It does not matter if you are secular or religious-this is not what is considered Above, but rather one's heart, his inner desire. The most real desire inside of me is what is called "truth." Even if I want to rob a bank, truly want it, this is my prayer. The only question is if I will receive help with that....
Question by a Student: Why does Baal HaSulam write that one must scream to the skies?
Answer by Dr. Michael Laitman: To scream means to concentrate all your desires to this. As you know, one cannot scream in stability, calmly. This is not prayer. And because we are not reaching it, we do not succeed.